| Acknowledgments |
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| Biographical Statements |
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| Foreword |
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Chapter 1 Introduction and Statement of Purpose |
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Chapter 2 Disparities from Bent Tree, Broken Roots, and Life in Detour |
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6 | (7) |
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Chapter 3 Uncertainty Intolerance and Embracing Disruption |
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13 | (4) |
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Chapter 4 Not All Chronic Pain Is Created Equal |
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17 | (8) |
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Chapter 5 Chronic Pain PTSD: Can You Hear Me Now? |
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25 | (12) |
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Chapter 6 Try Riding This Roller Coaster |
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37 | (9) |
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Chapter 7 Draining Body, Soul, Mind, and Spirit |
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46 | (13) |
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Chapter 8 Battlefield Body |
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59 | (11) |
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Chapter 9 Broken-Indifferent-Traumatized |
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70 | (10) |
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Chapter 10 Severe, Unrelenting, and Constant: Fighting Not to Give In |
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80 | (12) |
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Chapter 11 Wouldn't Wish It on My Worst Enemy |
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92 | (9) |
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Chapter 12 Goodbye to the Stage, Performance, Ovation, and Curtain Call |
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101 | (13) |
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Chapter 13 A Shell of Myself |
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114 | (11) |
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Chapter 14 The Other Side of Me |
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125 | (7) |
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Chapter 15 The War Inside |
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132 | (10) |
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Chapter 16 What's in Your Shoebox? |
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142 | (12) |
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Chapter 17 Weight of the World |
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154 | (10) |
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Chapter 18 Walking on Glass All Day Every Day |
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164 | (10) |
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Chapter 19 Questioning, "Am I Good Enough?" |
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174 | (12) |
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Chapter 20 Stop Making Me Feel Like Garbage |
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186 | (10) |
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Chapter 21 A Fallen Gladiator |
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196 | (13) |
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Chapter 22 Chaotic Mismatch |
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209 | (11) |
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Chapter 23 Feeling Stigmatized, Not Validated, and Paranoid |
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220 | (13) |
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Chapter 24 Body Going through Foreclosure |
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233 | (10) |
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243 | (10) |
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Chapter 26 Stop Trivializing Me, Already Feeling Like Half a Person |
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253 | (9) |
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Chapter 27 Pain of Mass Distraction |
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262 | (9) |
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Chapter 28 From the Crown of My Head to the Sole of My Feet |
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271 | (9) |
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Chapter 29 Conclusions and Implications |
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280 | (15) |
| Afterword |
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295 | (2) |
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Dr. Christopher Aaron Gilmore |
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| Bibliography |
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